#not at anyone here and im sure this has been said a million times before

[transgenderfivepebbles]

begging the projmoon fandom to be normal about gnc characters

[oshygoshy]

“do you think i’m pretty?”

word count - 567 words

warnings - cringe couple activities (im so lonely) also i'm not sure abt some chars so i put question marks but these can fit any and all ur faves. lmk if i forgot anyone!!

a/n - back from the dead. school started up again and im depressed and i have so many exams next week but here i am procrastinating!! maybe one day i'll write something again but in the mean time have this (it's been marinating in my notes app for like 3 months by now)

“yeah, you’re cute. adorable, even...” 

he said with a million-watt smile, his fingers absentmindedly tracing shapes against your thigh. you raised an eyebrow, questioning his taste. right now, you were wearing his old pajama shirt and bottoms which were both faded and fraying at the hems. out of all the times to call you cute, did he really choose right now? 

he leaned in to kiss the tip of your nose lightly, his fingers making their way up to your hands from your legs. he held them in his own warm palms, and kissed the corner of your lips. “don’t give me that look,” he whispered. “i think you’re the cutest wearing my clothes, y’know.” he kissed your cheek. “it makes me feel at home,” he said against your lips, and you couldn’t help but smile with him. something about his charm was infectious, and no matter how much you might doubt yourself, you knew he would always love you, tattered pajamas or not. 

hinata, bokuto, komori, yaku (demon senpai or not he definitely has a soft spot), aone, asahi, hanamaki, yamaguchi? aran? tendou? kenma? kageyama?

“beautiful. absolutely gorgeous,” he breathed.

your eyes widen, taken aback at the sincerity of his tone. a light flush couldn’t help but creep its way up onto your cheeks, and you look away, abashed. his fingers brushed against your cheek, tilting your face back at him. “why are you being so shy?” he questioned. “i mean it. truly. even the simplest things you do make me fall in love all over again.” his thumb rubbed soothing circles against your soft skin. "every time you fall asleep on my shoulder, every time you raise an eyebrow at me, and even right now when your cheeks are glowing pink make my heart stutter like we're on my first date," he said with a laugh. you could feel your cheeks burn aflame at his honesty, and couldn't help but look away. “quit blushing,” he teased. “i can’t focus when you’re looking so pretty like that.” 

akaashi, sugawara ("little shit") koushi, sakusa, the hirugami bros (acting like they don't have a combined word count of 20 in the entire series), iwa chan, daichi, semi, kita, ushijima?, tsukki?

“you’re pretty sexy.  hot, if i dare be promiscuous.” 

you roll your eyes at first, huffing through your nose and turning your attention back to your phone before he drags you back to his side. “i’m being serious,” he murmured into the side of your ear, his breath tickling your skin. “it goes beyond your looks, you know. it’s the way you walk, the way you carry yourself…the way you’re so confident in our relationship and in me,” he said, heartfelt. “that kind of unwavering confidence? unbelievably hot.” he leaned back, taking in your entire body. “also, you have a nice ass, which really helps.” he deserved the slap he got, but he couldn't help but grin at the sound of your giggles. he placed a chaste kiss against your temple, his hand looping around your waist again. "keep doing whatever you're doing. i'm in love with you, always. it's hard not to be when you're so irresistible," he whispered against your skin. 

kuroo, THE miya twins, meian, futakuchi, daishou, konoha (that legendary "nah, don't wanna" panel lives in my heart), oikawa, mattsun fs,  suna, noya, i would say tanaka but i don't want to be a homewrecker

[candycornturtleuwu]

hi what remains of edith finch fandom

i have a theory about the curse and im sure its been said a million times before but i just got here lol

i think the curse is that the characters get what they want most the moment before they die

calvin gets to fly, barbara gets her scream back, gus's parents dont have a successful wedding, and gregory doesnt have to leave the bath/leave his friends

the only one im unsure about is dawn tbh, if anyone has ideas i would love to hear them

[heartss4matthewq]

COULDVE BEEN (c.s)

warnings: angst, fluff, self harm

summary: you and chris grew up in Somerville together. when you guys grow up things change. chris isn’t the same.

(at the beginning yall are kids)

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*FLASHBACK*

“chris stopp” you said as he kept tickling your sides

“oh my gosh get over it y/n/n” chris said laughing

you and chris always got along when you were younger.

chris was the only person who understood you. sure, nick & matt loved you and you loved them. they weren’t chris though.

your guys’ parents used to joke that you and chris would get married one day.

“i have a surprise..close your eyes, okay?” chris said jumping off of the small porch you were sitting on

“chriss what is ittt!!” you exclaimed, excited to see what he had planned

“you’ll see” you can hear the autumn leaves crunching around you

you’ve been walking for 3 minutes and still have no clue what hes doing.

“okay were here” he stops you in the middle of the ground. “open”

the smell of old rain fills your nose.

you open your eyes and see chris on one knee next to a big tree with a strawberry ring pop.

“will you marry me mrs. y/n/l/n” chris says, a cheesy smile on his face.

“yes!” you say puckering your lips jokingly

chris puts the ring on your pointer finger.

“wanna go play on the swings y/n sturniolo?”

“that’s not my last name chris” you say smirking

“we’re married so now it is, you know how your moms last name is your dads? well yeah that’s how it works”

“oh okay”

*TIME SKIP*

chris has been gone for who knows how long.

the last time you saw him was in high school and you miss him like hell.

him & his brothers have blown up in their career on youtube since then.

you guys tried to stay in contact but it didn’t work.

you knew chris’ busy schedule so you didn’t blame him for getting distant.

although what no one did know, was that you and chris were “talking”

now, chris was not a player

chris had commitment issues & this hurt you a lot.

📞

“hii chris”

“hey.”

“um are you okay why do you sound annoyed?”

“yeah im cool just trying to chill right now”

“okay, when do you wanna make things official?”

“not soon because of my work and stuff like that”

“oh okay”

“yeah i’ll talk to you later though im gonna go film”

“okay have fun love you”

“mhm”

📞

you shut off your phone and put your face in your hands.

you started bawling not knowing why chris was like this.

one day he’d love you the next he would be so dry and barely talk to you.

why did he pretend you were something, you guys were nothing.

as you picked yourself off the floor you went and grabbed a razor blade.

you slid it over your wrist a couple times before putting it down and laying on your bed.

this was a new thing that chris never knew about & he would never find out.

as you laid there, you scrolled through chris’ instagram, and wow he looked happy but here you are sad and alone.

if chris knew what you had become since he left he’d-

slam.

“y/n?” chris exclaimed from downstairs

a million thoughts came through your mind.

“why is he here? when did he get back from LA? what if he sees me like this?

before you could even think about throwing the razor blade away he opened your door.

“chris wai-“ you said about to start crying again

“y/n. what is that?”

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omg i’m so sorry if that triggered anyone. i made sure to put warnings and i hope this was good!! also this is a series.

[effervescentbee]

I have an idea of Hobie disappearing for hours at a time everyday until Gwen gets worried enough to go looking for him and finds him in a corner of HQ far away from everything, he's surrounded himself with piles of books and hes wearing headphones while muttering something to himself.

As Gwen gets closer she begins to make out what Hobie is saying, "hola, gira-sol. t-te ves b..bien..?" He's stumbling over the words and sounds unsure of himself, his eyes scan the page of the book he has in his lap and he keeps repeating the phrase over and over again, each time his pronunciation of the words changing.

Gwen calls out hobbies name and gets no response, when she's right next to him and Hobie still doesn't seem to notice her she shoots a web to pull hobies headphones off. Hobie nearly hit her over the head with the book he's holding only just realizing someone else was there.

"dude, you never get surprised by me, what are you doing that's got you so distracted?"

Before Hobie can answer Gwen is already putting on the headphones she snatched from Hobie. '-here are however many more types of Spanish endearments, many unique to every person. For example, I call my wife mi estrella, which translates t-"

Hobie snatched the headphones back.

"you're learning Spanish endearments..?"

Once again Gwen doesn't wait for an answer and is instead leaning over to look at the book Hobie had in his lap only to be quickly shut by Hobie. The few words Gwen managed to see were in what she assumes is Spanish since she couldn't read it, she also caught a glimpse of a few flower pictures on the page.

"why are you here?"

Hobie finally spoke as Gwen began looking through all the books.

"why are you disappearing for hours everyday without telling anyone where you are, huh?"

"just busy, I don't need to tell anyone where im going."

Gwen only gave him a look as she went back to looking through the books

"so, are you going to tell me why you're learning Spanish or...?"

Hobie stayed silent.

"fine then, I'll figure it out myself."

Gwen thought to every possibility why Hobie would want to learn Spanish and found there really weren't a lot, if any at all. 'Spanish endearments.. is he learning this for someone?'

"my best guess is you've fallen head over heels in love with someone and want to impress them"

Gwen wasn't at all serious, but when she looked at Hobie and he was changing into a million different colors she knew she had been right

"wait..you're actually-" a large smile spread across her face "Hobie! You're in love! With who? Why haven't you said anything? Does pav know? Does anyone else know? Who is it? Do I know them?"

I have a few ideas of where to go from here but I'm not really sure how to continue in a way that makes sense for what I'm thinking, I also have to figure out how to write Hobie because I'm terrible at it ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

[nefamphetamine]

for once, i may be able to contribute to the dialogue about ons despite losing track of the plot at least 4 years ago.

anyway here are just some thoughts on today's chapter.

firstly, the elevator panel in the tower of babel is the kabbalistic tree of life. weirdly though, its extended past the regular amount of spheres which you can see in the comparison photo below.

actual tree of life with translations:

notably, shikama doji was at the top, presumably at keter, but im not sure if this was just added for the mystical vibe or if the tree of life actually serves a purpose in the plot.

the tree of life has 7 levels with different traits/virtues called "nodes" on each. for example, the 6th is binah (understanding) and chochmah (wisdom). it describes how god interacts with creation.

the tower mika and yuu enter is explicitly revealed to be the tower of babel, which according to the book of genesis is located in babylonia. the purpose of tower was to reach the heavens where god resides, but god stepped in and made it so that the workers could no longer communicate with each other and build further (britannica.com).

this story is said to be the origin of multiple languages on earth, rather than the sole language that all people spoke previously.

in terms of relevance to the plot of ons, this matches up with shikama doji's desire to ascend back to heaven.

knowing that, im confused with why there are so many other angels down there with shikama. were all angels expelled from heaven? why else would the city be so massive?

up until now i thought it was a lucifer/satan fallen angel type of deal.

on another subject, and i had to confirm this with a google search, there is no historically accurate reason for the presence of the star we see carved into the planet here since if we're going by historical accuracy. the star had no real relevance as far as i know until much later in history. like, modern ages. millions and millions of years later.

in terms of storytelling though, pentagrams are a motif commonly used to express meanings varying from godly protection and the warding off of spirits to satanic or occult rituals. obviously the occult part matches up with the magic we've seen in ons. unfortunately, we've been told very little about the magic system as a whole.

i wonder if the reason for the meteor that destroyed the dinosaurs was to get rid of this city? i cant imagine another reason why takaya kagami would choose this time period, millions of years before the first homo sapien. if anyone's curious, the meteor landed in what's known today as the Chicxulub crater.

on that subject lmao

mika, who i thought was supposed to be the smart one 💀:

the high-tech infrastructure of the angel city is deeply confusing to me. i wonder if we're going to be introduced to time travel? maybe that's where the ice cream comes from.

considering the introduction of dinosaurs few things would surprise me at this point.

i really wish things would speed up a bit. the complexity of the dialogue between yuu and mika is mind numbing at this point. it doesn't move the plot forward in the slightest, gives no information about the characters aside from what we already know; they're stupid.

how many times are we supposed to laugh at the same joke?

despite these flaws i feel for the first time in years the tiniest spark of interest in the plot solely because of how out of pocket this all is.

now that i think about it, if all the seraphim were expelled from heaven, what about the other types of angels? do they even exist in this universe?

References

https://www.britannica.com/topic/tower-of-babel

[agardenofbasil]

before the injury against athletic, pedri received a knock in training just before christmas and was subsequently out for like two games (which is nothing basically and can totally happen), but because he had already been injured from sep-nov 2023, he got a ton of hate and criticism from the media, including people making up stories about him, so he felt the need to go on live stream of a spanish stream to clear things up and tell his side of the story. anyways what i was trying to get at was, that during that livestream he said that when you get injured you go from being around the team all the time to being on your own and that you start to feel forgotten. and that on top of that you have to deal with everyone writing things about you, that they have no clue about. and that it’s tough to mentally bear that at times.

(https://www.tumblr.com/pedripics/738427331694215168/pedri-im-fine-but-not-at-my-best-it-wasnt-the?source=share)

i think this stuck with me for several reasons, first of all because i think it’s incredibly strong to open up about all of that at such a young age but also because it’s an aspect that rarely gets spoken about in the context of injuries. both the injury against athletic and the injury at the euros weren’t that bad from a physical point of view. but i personally think the players reactions towards pedri and their immense support both times show that there’s a lot more to it than just the physical side. and i was honestly quite happy that pedri got to stay with the team at the euros, that they included him in pretty much everything and made sure to remind everyone that it’s his win as much as theirs. like when unai said that pedri is in good spirits and that it speaks volumes about the kind of person he is and that they want to give some of that joy that he always brings them back to him by winning ❤️

(https://www.tumblr.com/pedripics/755457925906153472/how-has-the-family-national-team-taken-pedris?source=share)

Anon friend, you have me busting out the google doc to answer you.

I did read a bit about Pedri’s injury history while I started writing Longing for the Shore because I listened to a reel that was quite critical of Pedri’s absences. It was some guy with a microphone, so I didn’t give his opinion any weight. But I made the mistake of reading the comments and Tweets and, simply put, people are absolutely fucked. There was so much hate for someone who wants to fucking play football. And that was baffling for me. (Mind you, I used to watch casually, for years. I am only watching more seriously now.) But this mentality around injury has existed for years and years, especially when it comes to men and contact sports. 

So when you think about someone, in pain (in whatever definition of pain anyone wants to use), because of an injury. Now think about that someone who plays such a rigorous sport like football. Think of them being young: 20. Think of the mental pressure on them, not just from themselves and their expectations of themselves, but the expectations from the club, media, fans, and teammates. And now that someone is having to go out there publicly and address the vitriol and media… that’s intense. That’s not something that anyone who’s injured should have to do. 

Basically, I am glad Pedri made that comment and did that livestream because you’re right; he’s spotlighting a problem that contact sports has long dealt with: pretending that these are superhuman athletes who are void of any emotional depth. He was brave for doing this, and he was so mature. But he shouldn’t have had to do that, in my opinion. 

I know I am going off the rails here, but to me, a lot of this is tied back to economics and the body. Because people really do believe that if someone is being paid millions of euros to kick a ball around, then they should move past injuries easily. They should play despite injuries. But… If anyone is looking at Pedri, or any player, and thinking, “Man, he’s just making a big deal out of nothing,” I beg you to think of your own body. Would you put your body through all of that for a certain amount of money? How much is your body worth? Just to give perspective, let’s look at Robin Le Normand from Atletico Madrid. After the match with Real Madrid, he got diagnosed with a traumatic brain injury (subdural haematoma). Is 30 million euro a good enough price to permanently affect your body, at the age of 27? When you have at least 40 more years left with your body? Of course, people work very dangerous jobs all over the world for much less money, but very rarely do those people have strangers on the internet or media sending them hate, death threats, etc. (And even on the other end of the spectrum: let’s look at my Basque giant. Unai Simon played the Euros with a broken wrist. Now he’s out until January, and while Athletic has great second and third keepers, you can’t have both. You can’t ask for injured players to push through and then be surprised/upset when they’re out for a long time afterwards. And this was Unai’s choice to play with the injury!)

Pedri’s comments here stick with me too. He’s incredibly strong for taking a stand and speaking about his injury. Because let’s face it… as talented as athletes are, it’s much better to talk about your body in the context of victories and matches rather than talking about your body in the context of injury and recovery. So to be that honest and open is admirable, and like I mentioned before, I can see why Barca added him to the captaincy. And I wholeheartedly agree; Pedri’s teammates know Pedri will come back, inevitably. Because physically, Pedri will be fine (which he is!). It’s the mental anguish. It’s seeing Pedri being distraught on the bench. This is a player who is very aware of himself and has very high expectations. Daresay, Pedri seems like a bit of a perfectionist. And when you have that mentality, dealing with loss or injury is so hard because one becomes susceptible to blaming themselves. 

My favorite moments from the Euros celebrations are when they’re all rallying around Pedri. When they’re taking the photos, and they literally carry Pedri into the photo because you just know Pedri was trying to step away. [x] Or Morata carrying Pedri as he sings. [x] Or Lamine and Nico supporting Pedri as he dances. [x] Because all of them know how much this affected Pedri and they still want to include him and celebrate him because he played a huge role in getting them to the final. And it’s easy to forget that when you’re alone, in your house, with limited mobility, reading all the trash the media throws at you day after day. Healing isn’t just physical, it is so mental for someone like Pedri.

And I guess I’ll round this out with 100% agreeing with Unai Simon. When you recognize someone who is a literal beam of sunshine, you begin to rely on them to give you that joy. And Unai would know, considering the own goal fiasco and how it impacted them both. And when that person that brings you so much joy is in a bad place, you’ll do anything to help them back on their feet. And I think the Spain NT and Barca do that for Pedri, as Pedri does for them.

[angelhummel]

not to be a hater i was just thinking about this recently. the biphobia in Glee is so inconsistent with how its addressed.

like i’m pretty sure the ONLY person who ever gets called out for saying anything remotely biphobic is Kurt (which like im glad bc it was a shitty thing to say. tho i think kurt antis use it to frequently paint this rhetoric that kurt is a bad person bc of one (1) shitty thing he said)

meanwhile santana can say shitty things about bisexuality bc shes mad that brittany is dating sam and thats apparently fine???? she really has the idea that brittany is betraying her for penis which is bizarre. also i feel like she enabled dani’s biphobia as well.

i love santana, but i feel like this issue is heavily glossed over by fans while kurt’s comment is apparently bad enough to crucify him :/

I know we've talked about it before but I also just thought of it again recently. Bc there was a poll with Here Comes The Sun and someone in the tags was like "I'll vote for anything over Dani's biphobic ass" and it's like well baby girl Santana's biphobic ass is literally standing right next to her. And people sure don't have a problem voting for Santana's songs despite how blatantly biphobic she also is

And also transphobic, we can throw that in there, bc it's always about Penis and Boys hand in hand like there's no other option. Never mind Unique has been on the show for over a season, let's keep equating dick with gross boys and pussy with beautiful lesbian 100% pure sapphic goddesses 😍😍 Bleh it's like they tried to cram in every last shred of offensive sexual language they could think of into one two minute scene

BUT it's not like I'm judging that specific tagger, or anyone else who dislikes Dani. Bc at least Santana is a character with a million other things going for her besides the worst things she's said (exactly like Kurt hi) whereas Dani had like ten lines in her time on the show and half of them were "sapphic goddess" and "i love lady parts" barf

"She enabled Dani's biphobia as well" yeah literally. She could've just said "I was dating a girl and it didn't work out and we broke up" but she specifically threw "and she was bi" into the middle of it like that's part of the reason they broke up lmao. Santana, who tells Brittany that it's okay for her to date someone new, boy or girl, just to throw a fit when Brittany ends up dating Sam and makes it into some weird thing about her need for dick and how she's Less Than bc she's bi. And telling that to a potential new partner so she can reinforce her shitty stereotypes by also being gross about bi people (: Amazing

And anyway bringing it back to Kurt and double standards but like. That's pretty much the only offensive thing Kurt ever said lmao. Like yeah he said some dumb or thoughtless things here and there but if you take out that one glaring fuck up, you're not really left with anything that bad. Whereas if you extract Santana's biphobia from the equation, you're still left with six seasons of racism, homophobia, transphobia, antisemitism, fatphobia...

So yeah :) Double standards, anon, double standards x

[all-thestories-aretrue]

I am about 1 million years late to this but thank you for the tag @graphitekayla!!!

Rules: without naming them, post 10 gifs of your favorite shows, then tag 10 people. I'm definitely going to break this rule; you can't give me the opportunity to gush about my faves and not expect me to name them all!!

If anyone has followed me for any length of time none of this will be a shock lmao.

Shadowhunters, and more broadly speaking The Mortal Instruments. My first real fandom!!! I cannot overstate the impact the books and show had on my life. I wouldn't be who I am without it. I have an angelic rune tattoo. Magnus and Alec are some of the first queer characters I remember reading about. I remember where I was when they kissed for the first time in the show. You stupid nephilim lives rent free in my brain. This show (and the books) truly set up the trajectory my life is on now, and I will always always remember it fondly. Even with all the drama and discourse.

2. Critical Role, specifically C2. My first true obsession after the decade long Shadowhunters debacle. I stumbled into it to learn how to play D&D (which I now know is a controversy in and of itself lmao). But my friend @midnightellis wanted us to start a game, and I needed a way to learn that wasn't reading the books, so I started C2. It took 11 or 12 episodes, but then I fell in love. I spent the next almost year watching the entirety of C2 which culminated in visiting them to watch the finale together. I was extremely jetlagged. It was basically 8 amazing hours of nonstop crying. I have zero regrets. Except for the fact I still need to get the tattoo I had planned rip. One day!! I promise!!

3. Arcane!!!! A brief interlude between Shadowhunters and CR. There was about 4 months were I was OBSESSED and watched the entire show like 3 times back to back. I have many thoughts and feelings about Jayce. The show is also just so visually stunning. I cannot wait for S2 to drop in November!!!!!! I know nothing about League but I do really love this show.

4. House. Iconic. What else needs to be said? House is very much a comfort show for me; great to rewatch during the winter. I've watched the entire thing almost three times now, and even got my mom hooked lol. It was fun seeing all her reactions to everything before I moved.

5. If I had known what fandom was when this was airing, I truly would have been all over that shit. But I was 8 and didn't have access to the internet. Aang/Katara def my first otp lol. I did, however, ignore a friend that was over at my house to watch the finale, I believe. I definitely told them to go play so I could watch the show uninterrupted. Needless to say, they were not thrilled with that. I'm 90% sure it was the finale now, but I could be wrong about the episode. ATLA is also another comfort show that I could watch over and over again.

6. Shadow and Bone. I am still SICKENED this got canceled. Genya and David are the ultimate romance, and no one will convince me otherwise. I almost stopped reading when I found out his fate. I was devastated. Everyone in this show is also very pretty. I can't believe we won't get a s3.

I'm going to stop here because this is already long enough, and tbh I'm not sure I actually have four more shows. I can only be obsessed with one thing at a time, and the current obsession is Path of Night. And that does not seem to be waning any time soon.

Edit: Lost should 100% be on this list. I think I've watched it at least four times. My family and I watched it live as it was airing when I was a kid. And it still is one of my favorite shows. I know people got beef with the ending but I truly didn't mind it. Even if it's bad or whatever, I think Lost is still 100% worth watching. There are so many little hints and clues that I pick up something different every time, and each character death hits just as hard.

I'm going to tag: @gelatinouscute, @peppedstep, @midnightellis, @discordkittenterumi, @im-a-vampire-now, @zeena-athena , @syntia13treeman , @sapphicfugue , @dr-thumbs-brand-new-spot

If you want to do this :)

[sparring-spirals]

hi! sorry to bother you with this but I don’t really know how to search for it online and I don’t know anyone else that follows cr/has seen C2, so… when they brought devexian back online I know he was very broken and couldn’t remember much, but he was… somewhat functional, right? like, his core was intact etc?

I’m asking because I’ve been having this feeling lately that they’ll get to the repair terminal in the genesis ward in the next ep or so, and for the live show they’ll somehow fix fcg through the same means the mighty nein used for D (and that’s how sam would make his appearance at the show), since they kept the pieces after the explosion…

I guess my question is… would it work? can they fix fcg there? or would the core need to be intact for that? was devexian’s? could the repair terminal give them another core or is their core intrinsically linked to their soul? (I guess the last question is more of a meta question since there’s no way we can know that😂 but I’d love to know your opinion on it)

thank you and sorry again for the ramblings🫶🏻

hello anon. I'm deeply flattered you asked me and I am also SO sorry i did not see this until way late. I'm not even sure this answer is still any use given the liveshow has already gappened. but uhm. im here now! Never apologize for asking clarifying questions to me, i dont mind, just know that I sometimes (often) won't know. Or might go AWOL! apparently. This goes quadruple-fold for when I am some million hours behind on the campaign.

Also you sent this in BEFORE the live show and since then the live show has happened and Sam has returned with a hot flirty hunk of a character so I guess that answers that part of your question? I Am. So Sorry. But imo your broader question about if they could bring back F.C.G at all remains.

so that said, knowing that I havent been properly caught up for some 30-40 episodes, I'm going to give my very handwavey opinion, then turn you over to the hands of my followers who are probably more well informed and also probably caught up on the campaign.

I think its important to consider any kind of F.C.G revival on both an out of game perspective and in game perspective, bc I think with revival the latter influences the former a LOT. I think if Sam were really interested in bringing back F.C.G the repair terminals and them keeping parts of F.C.G could factor into it. There's definitely the question of "what makes F.C.G F.C.G" that would have to factor in, which gets philosophical very quick- I think there would have to be some equivalent of a standard revival ritual where they call something back from the beyond, because IMO, putting a "new" core in wouldnt bring back FCG.

Before we even get into the nitty gritty of the philosophy, though I don't know that Sam would want to bring F.C.G back? I mean the live show ended and there's now a hot minotaur in the party so its easy for me to say that. But Sam has also always been someone to commit to the big swings for characters- including losses- and his treatment of F.C.G's death felt like he thought it was meaningful and impactful and said what he wanted it to say. So in that vein- maybe it isnt possible to bring F.C.G back, largely because I think Matt would respect if Sam wouldn't want to leave that on the table.

TL;DR: Its not that I think there's no way to viably justify an F.C.G revival using the repair terminals, but it would be tricky and I don't see them doing that, from what I know. Is there an opportunity for something similar to Molly -> Kingsley towards the end of the campaign? Shore. Maybe. but i dont count that in the bucket youre describing.

anyway. im so sorry for the delay on this anon. i hope you had a good time watching the live show and are enjoying Sam's new character and im sorry i was not present enough to see this and respond earlier 😅

[comeontaylorspeaknow]

So guys I'm thinking about going on a hiatus from April 17th to late May. Since it's the end of the year I want to make sure I stay focused on school and don't get distracted cause I know I will and I'm trying to stay be more responsible! The same goes for Twitter too cause I'll get distracted on there too lol! Which means I'll be deleting the apps for now cause I know myself very well, I know ill take a peak and then ill get distracted and it wont be good. I have some edits I'll schedule for today and tomorrow I do need to dial down on the time I'm on here cause I'm active almost all day during the weekend and still quite a few hours during the weekdays what I'm trying to say is I do kinda need a break to be healthy! But I promise I'll be back don't worry! To be honest I've been needing to do this for a while. I think when I come back I'm going to limit my time on here to be more healthy and productive! I also reblog and make edits way too much so I'm going to dial that down as well. No one rely has said oh you need to stop posting so much I just something I think is best! Something else is im also a big procrastinator so sadly social media doesn't really help with that fact. So I just keep putting stuff off which I shouldn't do now it's not completely social media either it's me not being responsible, but I think it's important and good that I know what I'm doing is wrong and trying to be better! As I've said a million times before thank you all, you all have been so kind and sweet, and honestly I'm really glad I joined tumblr. Now the only reasons I'll be active during this hiatus is if speak now tv is released and because of the pride event. I'll be active for the next two days but Monday starts the hiatus! I'm gonna miss you all so much! 💗

Tagging some friends!

@misschanadlerbong @garden-of-the-soul @sparklezfallsinlovewithbooks @hydesjackiespuddinpop @jervis-tetch-my-beloved @taylorswifff @corax-blackwolf @snownonthebeach @honeyed-sunflowers @jackys-stuff-blog @chiara-swiftiedreamer13 @kimspeaksssnow @swiftiepride

I'm sorry if I missed anyone! 💗

[therealpontius]

BBQ (pt3) ~ the bed

Plot: you wake up in bed with WHO?

You get woken up with hysterical laughter from steve-o but dont open your eyes so you can try to wake yourself up before any form of communication. " holy shit dude get out of the bed before she wakes up" you hear him saying whilst almost litterally dying of laughter, he laughs at everything... wait, 4am, that man hugging you. Shit. You turn around quickly to see chris sitting up looking confused and guilty as all hell. You eyes meet and you both freeze for what felt like a life time

"Knoxville! Bam! Come quick" you hear the sound if two men scramble upstairs almost immediately after steve-o called for them "shit" chris mumbles under his breath still looking at you, frozen still

" holy shit" bam said in disbelief, you didnt blame him "everyone get up here, chris and y/n are doing it like the pigeons!" Bam shouted down the stairs, you and chris's heads darted to bam as you both heard a stampede of men running up the stairs with the occasional "what!?" You couldn't even look at anyone, you were so mortified. After a few minutes of jokes and comments being fired at you both chris decided to get up and walk out the room, you stayed in bed face down but noticed only one person wasnt facing chris asking him questions so you looked up, it was johnny, he looked abit pissed off but just walked off after you noticed him, he was probably just pissed because you guys were in his bed...

The boys eventually went downstairs after they calmed down so you got yourself ready and checked yourself to see if something did happen, too drunk to tell if something did but if something did he was definitely too drunk to remember it either.

*knock knock*

You got flustered incase it was one of the boys coming to tease you " hello? Its preston is it safe to come in?" Preston was a great man he was always there for you, he was like another dad "yes preston in you come" he slowly opens the bedroom door and sits on the bed " are you okay? I know the boys can be a bit much sometimes" He put his hand on your sholder reassuringly, it made you tear up you cant lie he was just so genuine "awwe preston your so sweet, im fine i swear im just embarrassed, i checked and im one million percent sure nothing happened" you said smiling warmly " well come on down chris has heat up the left over burgers from the BBQ for lunch"

You sat on the couch inbetween knoxville and ehren, at this point the boys had moved on and just continued conversation " so ive been drawing up a bunch more drawings of stunts we can do like-" bam was cut off by chris walking in with burgers for everyone " burgers!" Chris announced whilst leaving the plate on the coffee table, everyone stood up and gathered around grabbing for a burger. somehow chris managed to sneak himself next to you were ehren was sitting "hey man! Thats my seat!" ehren said as he turned round " fuck off" chris said through his teeth threateningly, he scared you a little " so y/n" chris looked over to you " whats your plans for today?" Everyone was away in their own conversations "umm im just planning on staying here till knox drags me out" you nudged johnny and the three of you all laughed " i would never, its nice having company" johnny said smiling and lightly nudging you back " well im going skating with steve if you want to tag along?" He smiled at you exitedly "im sorry dude i cant im just wanting to relax today" his smile dropped and he nodded "i get it i was just too good in bed last night" he giggled and lay back on the couch, you heard johnny and ryan laughing "chris nothing happened!" You laughed, raised your voice.

Its 7pm and your helping johnny with the left over dishes after everyone else has gone "thankyou y/n you honestly dont need to help" johnny said while running a dirty cup under the water " its no bother at all i have nothing better to do anyway" you sat on his counter watching him wash the dishes " you okay?" He looked over at you noticing you zoned out " yeah sorry im okay im just stressed about this morning" you looked up at him "me chris didnt do shit everyone knows that right?" He shrugged and continued washing the dishes "when i carried you to bed no one was there maybe he just got into bed without noticing" he tried to calm you down " but he started cuddling me last night, i thought it was you so i didnt say anything" You blurted out without realising what you had said "and why wouldnt you say something if it was me?" He smirked and stopped washing dishes "sorry im so tired i dont even know what im saying" you laughed off "i should probably head home its getting late" he nodded and got your shoes for you" thankyou johnny, oh almost forgot!" You took off the brown leather jacket he lent you "no no you keep it, you suit it better". Johnny smiled "awwe thankyou" you giggled and gave him a hug before leaving...

[cloudstrifing]

11, 12, 47 for askmeme?

hewwo anon thank u for asking! :3

11. Link your three favorite fics right now

i like gritty fucked up aus so both the ones that came to mind are that, tread carefully and mind any warnings!

At Sea by story_strudel (rudereno): extremely cool ff7 au, wonderful world building and vibes, amazing characterization, the emotional slow burn has me eating my hands I am just sitting here so patiently waiting for updates and even if it is never completed im still grateful for what this author gave me. their fic enchantment night is a banger too

f*ck yourself: self-improvement with convicted felon millions knives by elthedane (kniveswood): WEE WOO STRONG CONTENT WARNING FOR THIS ONE, contains heavy themes, dubious consent, and prominent side kv--this knives is a convicted murderer who is fully freaking out bc he might be falling for someone who is NOT vash, give it a hard pass if that's not for you. the characterization and writing and au setting are so top notch though that I personally (as a guy who doesn't seek out kv ever) decided to stick it out and trust the author. its marked complete but does update occasionally, the story is far from done. tho this one is absolutely not for everyone so I repeat CURATE YOUR EXPERIENCE DOT JPG!!!!

i dont have a third one that is a particular favorite Right Now but ive read a handful of very good vashwood oneshots recently, interested parties can check out my bookmarks bc i save the ones i enjoy!! _(:3

12. How does receiving or not receiving support/feedback impact you?

immensely....... it's been said before but it really makes all the difference, especially for writers. we can’t monetize in the same way as artists so letting us know u enjoyed our work is The reward. I write original stuff as well which is more of a toiling in darkness type endeavor anyway, but im absolutely in fandom to connect and vibe with y'all and any and all feedback makes me more motivated to create new stuff. i do try to reply to every comment too to show my appreciation!! other interactions like replies/dms/qrts are equally treasured! 🫶

47. How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

so many. soooooo many. it depends a little bit on the length of the fic and how long ive been working on it but like uh, at least ten? i dont necessarily recommend this because im sure its possible to be more efficient and intentional but i reread my wips at every stage on different devices to fix rhythm issues and "he would not say that" incidents so yea.

questions r here if anyone else wants to chat !!

[pcrfectcrime]

" it's been a dream of mine to open a bakery. my family has one back in cuba. i thought i would place some roots here. i know it wasn't my parents' dream for me to open a business but im glad i did." her business was like her baby. she took care of it. it was a passion project turned into a long time career. the questions suddenly pouring out of daxton's mouth was no surprise to her. like them, she also had a million questions for daxton. she had wanted to ask them immediately but didn't want to bombard them. clearly daxton had decided to be the first one to do it. " we can have a discussion upstairs in the apartment." it was more of a demand rather than a suggestion or a question. " let me clean up the table " the femme cleaned up the table and threw out their empty bottle of waters and napkin filled with crumbs before checking to make sure the front door was locked. she made sure the alarm was on before grabbing the keys to the apartment from behind the counter and motioned for daxton to follow them upstairs. once upstairs, the baker took off her shoes and sat down on the couch. " you can make yourself at home." she said, motioning around the apartment. " to answer your question, no im not seeing anyone." the bakery kept her busy, and it was hard for to not compare the people she went on dates with to daxton. " been too busy for all of that, and the apps suck so much." they shrugged. " the family is good. luna is out there traveling the world and trying to find her bearings. my parents, you know. they're my parents." she let out a soft chuckle. when it came to ashton, daxon was surprised they had asked about them when they were downstairs. like with carmen, if not worse, they had a really bad falling out. no one muttered daxton's name around ashton. " ashton is good. really good. we still talk." no surprise considering ashton is carmen's best friend and despite everything that happened, ashton and carmen still kept close together. " they're in a relationship. their partner is named svea. she has two kids. ashton is officially a step-parent, can you believe?" she laughed. " when im not here at the bakery, im either hanging out with my parents or going to the farmer's market to pick up fresh produce for the baked goods. i know, my life is so entertaining." her last words making her roll her eyes. her eyes wandered around the room for a bit before making its way back to dax. a smile had formed on her face when it really hit her that daxton was in front of her. they no longer felt like a figment of their imagination. " sorry, im still trying to adjust that you're here you know? i really didn't think i'd see you again. i always wondered where you were. i tried searching for you at one point but to no avail. i had thought maybe you didn't want to be found."

"it is lucky you're not, 'cause that would be really weird if you were," they chuckled, a genuine smile crossing their lips. daxton didn't blame ashton for the way they felt, they'd done nothing but use them, just to throw it back in their face in the worst possible way. it was probably for the best that carmen hadn't seen them once the two of them separated as daxton only continued to spiral. nodding, they understood, it was far from healthy for her to have been around them. "you don't have to explain yourself, i get it. i really lost myself and there were consequences for that. i should have relied on you more for support when things weren't okay for me but deep down, i don't think things have ever been okay," they confessed honestly, things that stemmed from their relationship with their parents, having their emotions and needs ignored. acting out was all they knew, a cry for help. "i just want you to know, none of it had anything to do with you. you were always the best thing in my life."

nodding, daxton was more than happy to have the subject of conversation off of them. "yeah, i do." for a moment they found themselves distracted by her beauty. their eyes were soft as they trailed over her features, "everything?" they wanted to know every detail of her life that they'd missed out on. "it's really impressive. i didn't know you were so keen to have a business like this. i probably would have broken more things than i could fix." they paused debating on whether or not they were ready for the next question, "are you seeing anyone?" daxton was expecting to hear that she was, someone like carmen didn't stay single for long, especially with the amount of people walking through the doors to notice her. "how um, is your family? luna?" they paused for a moment, biting the inside of their lip, again not sure if they were ready to learn about the people they'd let down, "..is ashton okay?" once the questions had started, it was as if they were not going to stop, "do you live close by? what do you do when you're not here? like on weekends and stuff. sorry, i- i just want to fill in the blanks"

[pillsarchive]

Castlevania - Imagine Vlad Tepes giving you a private tour of the louvre at night

NOTES: Over the summer I went to the louvre in the daytime. I loved it but the heat was terrible and there were way way way too many people for my liking so I got to thinking - what if you had a cool radical vampire bf with cool radical vampire powers to break you in at night and make sure you get to really look at everything? I know he's a musuem girlie, no way he wouldn't take the time to personally explain the history of (and his personal expirience with) every object that really caught your eye.

Ignore the technicalities, I know breaking in probably wouldn't be as easy as just climbing through a skylight. He ate all the guards or something - whatever makes it more plausible.

WARNINGS: None, some happy crying but its mostly just fluff.

“How has no one asked why you’re carrying a blindfolded girl around yet? I know you have powers and stuff, but you cant glamour everyone on the streets of Paris… can - can you do that?”

Vlad nearly giggled as he held you closer to his cold body.

“Your human eardrums would split if I told you all the details - the words for some of the abilities I have cant be translated into english, im afraid.”

You wrapped your arms around his neck, smiling. He began to speak again.

“It also helps that we’re breaking in, and it’s nighttime.”

You paled and looked up at him, mouth slacking open.

“Wait what?”

“Oh dont act so shocked.”

The corners of your mouth quirked up. You could barely sit still as he held you, walking so smoothly it felt as if you were both laying down. You had asked him a million times where you were going, why a blindfold was necessary, and all he had given you so far was a smug “it’s a surprise darling, you have to be patient.”

That had never been one of your virtues.

The sound of the night and all the people walking around suddenly dulled and you felt yourself slowly begin to lift then descend into a cold room. 

You clung to your boyfriends chest. 

“Woa- jesus are we falling through someone’s roof?”

“No, no, I suppose now is an opportune time to tell you where we are and take your blindfold off.”

“Really?”

“Yes really, ill help you - here -”

His fingers untied the knot and the black silk ribbon fell from your eyes.

When you saw where you were you slapped your hand over your mouth, resisting the urge to cry. 

“The louvre, my love. You said you’d like to see it with me but I cant go out during it’s business hours and you’ve always worried about the crowds - I figured I’d make the situation a little easier for the both of us. “

Now you felt hot tears spill out of your eyes and roll down your face in rivers. What had you ever done to deserve him? How could someone this amazing be as hopelessly in love with you as you were with him? You had always loved art and you’d tried to go to the louvre once with some friends before you’d met vlad, but the crowds made you too anxious and it was so hot in the daytime. At night the moon shone through the glass ceiling of the entrance room and refracted off of the big glass pyramid, the marble walls were cool to the touch. 

Vlad noticed your tears and smiled.

“No need to cry dragul meu, think of it as your birthday present - though rest assured you will be getting much more than this. I greatly enjoy spoiling you, you realize.”

You laughed and pulled him into a tight hug, playing with his long black hair.

“How am I supposed to top this when it’s your birthday? Im thankful, but this is a lot already. The best birthday present I was expecting to receive like ever in my whole life was a car, maybe a lot of books or tickets to orlando horror nights if I got lucky.”

He smiled and ran his gloved hands over your back as he spoke.

“Trust me, my love, you give me the best present ive ever gotten - ever in thousands of years over thousands of lifetimes by being with me and loving me. After doing all the things ive done I never expected anyone that knows my face to stay with me, let alone someone i’ve been pining over for a decade. Lubitul meu.”

You pulled away from the hug and kissed him. He smiled into the kiss and cupped your face in his hands. After a while he pulled away. 

“As much as Id enjoy standing with you and kissing you for the rest of the night, I want you to get as much time with your gift as you can.”

You grinned and took his hand, looking up at him.

“Can we start with the renaissance statues?”

“Of course”

You walked into the moonlit gallery, grabbing a map as you went. The museum was completely empty save for you two and you couldn’t have been happier.

[starseungs]

➳ universe. ksm

pairing: kim seungmin x gn!reader

Every day, he thanked the universe for placing you in his life. Out of the millions of heavenly bodies in the vast sky, you outshone every single one in his eyes. He was waist deep in a slowly sinking phenomenon he could only describe as love.

genre/s: roommates au, angst, fluff, writer!seungmin, unrequited love

warning/s: work & financial struggles, high real estate prices (yes im putting this here), the angst tag is before the fluff tag for a reason (is this a spoiler? probably)

wc: 2.5k

note: behold, another angst from me. don't question it- at this point its the only thing i can write properly;; also this fic is connected to my felix fic if you want to read that after! the two are written to serve as stand-alones too, so it won't affect the stories much if you don't. UPDATE: this has a part 2 now !

2022 ⓒ starseungs on tumblr. do not steal, repost, or edit.

Seungmin finally looks up from the blinding light of his laptop and stretches his limbs for the first time since the sun said its goodbyes. His room was dark—the only source of lighting being the laptop’s screen, which only reminds Seungmin that he should probably lower the brightness setting before working in an environment like this. He already had a sinking feeling that he’d be needing a trip to the eye doctor soon. 

And ending up with glasses would be such a hassle.

It’s not that Seungmin hated wearing them per se, but having to use the tool for reading things would hinder the efficiency of his job somehow. Of course, not to the point of a drastic difference, but he liked being able to work on his craft right away whenever and wherever.

You see, Seungmin is a writer. 

Well, calling it his job is sort of a reach. His "actual" job was as a journalist for a news-based company—still in the same field, just different specializations. Seungmin considers himself quite good at both, though.

He loved creating stories. It was his way of destressing from all the chaos that was his list of news topics to cover. Who said journalism was easy? It was enjoyable, yes, but it physically hurts him sometimes when he’s being told to cover devastating topics. Maybe he was just too soft for the line of work. After all, his colleagues seem to be doing just fine with similar coverage.

Seungmin originally wanted to be a book author anyway. It has been a long time dream of his to watch his story and characters come to life in the minds of those who read it. 

His passion for creative writing was something he discovered back when he was still a child. Books were always of interest to him; the concept of experiencing the characters’ lives through words and bringing life to the reader’s imagination was greatly thrilling. And that’s why one day, he simply found himself wanting to try it out.

Years after that event, Seungmin was now a fairly well-known writer on a platform where anyone could post their work. Along the way, he realized that being a professional author was so much harder than it seemed—but this chance was already enough for him. His stories were seen by more people than he had originally imagined, and that itself was a big achievement.

Like a normal person in society, though, he still had to find a job. Posting for free wasn’t going to support his daily life, which is why he ended up working as a journalist. The pay was decent enough to not make him live off of cup ramen like in his broke college days. Despite this, he initially struggled to keep a place to live.

Real estate prices were crazy high in Seungmin’s area. So much that it ate a good chunk of his paycheck just to keep the apartment he had. Sure, he had a stable job, but it wasn’t the highest-paying one out there—it was only about time that he would be struggling to keep up with rent.

And that was when he met you.

"Can I please just have another extension? I had to send money home this week, so I’m really lacking on the payment," Seungmin remembered pleading with the landlord. 

He was severely behind on two months of rent at that moment, and the owner of the complex he lived in was starting to have his patience run thin. 

It wasn’t something he could control! Seungmin’s sister had broken her leg and needed extra money to cover the hospital and recovery fees. He wasn’t about to leave his family hanging like that!

The landlord sighed and patted his back. "Sorry about this Seungmin, but if you can’t pay the two months by tomorrow, we have to ask you to move out. There’s another person who is interested in an apartment here, but we were already full," he said, dropping his arm off Seungmin's back. "We’re running a business here. I hope you understand."

Seungmin was left dumbfounded as the landlord started walking away. What was he going to do now? It’s not as if he could just magically conjure up enough money to fully pay two months of rent. Asking his family was out of the question—they already had their hands full with his sister. So what’s next? His friends? How comedic.

He didn’t have any.

The closest would probably be his co-workers, but it was a very professional relationship and stopped at general concerns. He doubts they would be willing to lend him more than simple pocket money.

"Hello? Excuse me, sir?" He hears a person calling out to him. He turned around and spotted you—who was peeking out your apartment’s front door. Oh, right. You were his neighbor.

"Yes?" 

Seungmin watches as your eyes light up at his response. Why do you look so happy to talk to him? "I’m sorry for the sudden conversation, but it's just that I overheard your talk with the landlord. You’re going to be kicked out tomorrow, right?"

That was certainly one way to say it, he grimaces. Surely, you didn’t mean it in an insulting way, but the cheerful tone in your voice reminding him of the current situation was kind of putting salt over his wound. 

Sighing, Seungmin decides to reply and get it over with, "Apparently. What about it?"

The universe must have been on his side at that moment, because your words certainly caught him off guard. This was not what he was expecting—

"Do you want to share an apartment? I have an extra room."

Granted, any random person who offers to live together would've been sketchy in Seungmin's eyes. But maybe it was your positive vibe that pulled him in, telling him that this was a good idea.

You were literally giving him a place to live, at half the original price. Having a roommate wouldn't be such a big problem, right? Plus, you seemed like a decent person to live with.

However, all his other considerations were thrown out the window at the speed of light once he realized once again how severe his issue was: he was on the brink of becoming homeless. 

"Sure."

And that was where it all started.

Living with you was quite possibly the best decision Seungmin had made in a while. Not only did he continue to live in the same apartment complex (which was the closest to the train station in his area), but he also ended up with more money for spending because the monthly amount he had to pay for rent was cut in half.

You were such an angel too. Always making sure the kitchen was stocked, so that the two of you were living like proper functioning adults. It would take some more time before Seungmin was willing to go back to his college dorm lifestyle days. He's already been avoiding the instant noodle aisle in convenience stores for the past year. 

In exchange for your generosity, he started doing most of the chores in the apartment—something you heavily thanked him for, because washing the dishes really wasn't your favorite pastime.

Due to this dynamic you both developed, a lot of your neighbors mistook you two as a couple. And no matter how many times you tried to correct the assumption, it just comes back stronger in the form of: "Oh, young love. You don't have to be shy about it! Both of you are adults now. Living together isn't that bad."

Except it is that bad. 

The main reason you decided to have Seungmin as a roommate was that you, too, were running late on rent for that month. Unlike him, who was on it for the second time in a row, though, you had lacked just one month at that point, so the landlord let you get away with it. 

Your job had to cut employees due to a financial crisis, and the pay was lowered by about one-fourth of the original. Luckily for you, your workplace considered you one of the best workers and decided to keep you among the remaining employees. Because of that, you didn't lose your job—only a pay cut.

Basically, that leaves you and Seungmin in the "struggling young adults" classification. Sharing an apartment was the best move you two could make in an effort to save your living standards.

On the other hand, if you asked Seungmin about the misunderstanding, he'd honestly say that it doesn't bother him as much as it did you.

Half a year into your roommate agenda, he found himself falling for you. The crush started not long after you first found out about his hobby of writing.

"So, you post stories online? That's so cool!" Was your genuine praise, looking at Seungmin's laptop screen with interest.

He, on the other hand, was developing cold sweat—a result of having you so close to him. You were currently hovering over his back, trying to get a peek at his draft document. 

"Yeah—I, uh, post stuff sometimes," Seungmin replied with a small voice, not used to people praising his hobby in person. "It's nothing too special. But I like the reactions of the readers."

You hum. "How do you plan stuff? I'm not really a writer kind of person, but I do enjoy reading. I want to take a glimpse at your writing process."

Seungmin tried his best to not swoon like a fool.

Someone interested in his work? As well as the process? What a way to make him fall for you.

"I normally just have these bursts of ideas. It can be lines, plots, concepts, character traits, all that stuff. When I do get them, I open my phone's recording app and just say my ideas for future use," Seungmin explains. "I know others write them down as notes, but personally, I prefer verbally describing them, even if it's messily done."

The way your eyes sparkled as he pointed out more stuff in his writing process had him whipped in an instant. It was from then on that Seungmin's adoration for you grew even more romantically.

Every day, he thanked the universe for placing you in his life. Out of the millions of heavenly bodies in the vast sky, you outshone every single one in his eyes. He was waist deep in a slowly sinking phenomenon he could only describe as love.

It's been about two more years since he deciphered his feelings for you. He'd never know how you'd managed to still be living with him—what he did know, though, was that it was a mutual decision. 

You both never talked about it up front, but it was obvious that the two of you were now in a better place financially. It would be reasonable to want to live separately again, but the bond you formed throughout the two and a half years of living together was something that could not be broken easily.

"... Min?" He hears your voice calling out. You must be home already.

After stretching once again, he headed towards his door to greet you. Your eyes quickly caught his, the sight making you smile. This reaction was what kept Seungmin going every day.

"Were you asleep? Did I wake you up?" You asked, setting down the plastic bag you were carrying on top of the kitchen table. He shakes his head as a no. "Oh, that’s good. Your light was turned off, so I just assumed."

Seungmin laughs at you while he approaches the plastic bag. Once he got a closer look, he realized it contained takeout food. He looked at you in question. You merely motioned towards it. "Did you eat already? I brought you take-out just in case. Just place it in the fridge if you’re not hungry yet."

The action has him grinning unconsciously. It was one of your love languages to do acts of service, and knowing that, he felt extremely loved.

Taking out the food, he started unwrapping it while watching you take off your shoes on the sofa. It was endearing to see you relax and become more comfortable once inside your shared apartment. He felt special knowing that he was one of the only people to see you in your natural form.

Sadly, his joy-filled illusion was destroyed right away when he noticed the outfit you were currently still wearing—a devastating reminder of what had just gone on with your night.

"How was the date?"

You beamed at his question. At least you’re happy, he thought bitterly. 

"It was great, Min! He was such a gentleman the whole time, I was practically swooning. His name is Felix, by the way. Just in case I end up introducing you two. You have an Australian co-worker, right? Chris, was it? He’s Australian too—do you think they know each other?" You chatted enthusiastically.

How fun. He could already tell that this Felix guy was a topic that would stay for a while.

The conversation hurt him, but Seungmin decides to entertain you nonetheless. "Maybe. I can ask tomorrow or something." You give him a thumbs up.

"Cool! I'll go and change out of this now. Good night, Min!" He waves back at you, watching your form disappear behind your room's door. When he finally heard a click, his arm dropped immediately.

It wasn't the first time you've gone on a date with someone else before. But it was the first time you went home approving of one—a very big deal, because this means whoever this Felix is, he's definitely getting a second date from you.

Seungmin was envious of the guy. He doubts he'll ever be on the receiving end of your dates. Something he knows and has tried before, albeit more indirectly. The result was soul-crushing, though.

Bzzt, bzzt.

His phone vibrated for a while, indicating an important notification. Considering he had all other notifications off except for messages, it must have been a text. He lazily picks it up, glancing at the message.

Y/N 🤍: i hope you liked the food i got you btw

Y/N 🤍: love you bro 🤪👊

He simply smiles at his phone, even through the tears that have piled up in his eyes. As much as Seungmin hated being seen as a brother to you, he'd rather have that than nothing. 

Yes, you saw him in a more familial light. It completely broke him for a while when he first confirmed it, but there was nothing he could do. Seungmin wasn't about to force you to like him romantically. 

No, he would rather leave the shared apartment than ever hurt you on purpose. Both were thoughts he despised to the bone. 

Exhaling shakily, he opens up the voice recording app and presses start.

"I know there’s a universe out there where we'll end up together. It’s just not this one."

[ PART 2 ]

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